Patience

Should I weigh daily or weekly? I've heard arguments for both methods. I'm not a very patient person, so I don't know if I can wait to weigh every week. But, I also don't want to get discouraged with the day to day fluctuations.

305.5# today. Up .5.

I've decided that once I lose 100#, I'm going to take a horseback riding lesson with Pony Princess. In the mean time, my immediate reward will be a pedicure when I break below the 300# barrier.

143 Reasons.....

In order to keep me motivated, I plan to come up with a list of 143 reasons why I need to loose weight. One reason for each pound I need to loose. This will be a work in progress.

I will loose 143 pounds so that:

110 - my feed don't hurt all the time
111 - My stomach does not touch the steering wheel
112 - I have extra confidence in the bedroom : )
113 - I can fit in the bathtub and have my body fully submerged
114 - I can wear a short pixie cut and not have my face look like a balloon with a sponge on top
115 - I won't be embarrassed to have my picture taken
116 - I don't sweat as badly
117 - I can get up from the floor easily
118 - return to femininity
119 - I can wear high heels
120 - I can ride a bike with my kids
121 - I get better gas mileage in my van
122 - I can tuck in my shirts
123 - I can wear jeans
124 - my thighs won't rub together
125 - I no longer commit the sin of gluttony
126 - I can meet my grandchildren
127 - I can set a good example for my children
128 - I can look better in a bathing suit
129 - I can better enjoy the oppressive Georgia summers
130 - I can ride ALL the rides at Great Wolf Lodge
131 - I can cross my legs
132 - I can fit in an airplane seat
133 - I can jump on the trampoline
134 - I can ride a horse
135 - my asthma symptoms improve
136 - I don't snore
137 - I have a lap for my kids to snuggle on
138 - I don't worry if a piece of furniture will hold my weight
139 - I can shop in vintage stores and find clothes that actually fit
140 - I can wear cute and sexy underwear
141 - my husband can pick me up
142 - I can give myself a pedicure instead of having to pay a salon
143 - I will be healthy

Just one Day? Really?

I can't even control what I put in my big fat mouth for one stinkin' day. Yesterday, I did great all day. I followed my eating plan, and even swam laps for the first time in I don't know how long. BUUUUUUT after dinner, I got some bad news. The horse farm where Pony Princess, age 8, takes riding lessons is ending their lesson program right in the middle of a show series. Ugggghhhh. Not only does this leave us high and dry, but it leaves her trainer high and dry too. So now I'm worried about Pony Princess keeping up with her riding skills, and am even more worried about her trainer who has become a good family friend over the years. This trainer really relies on her lesson income, so this is a big hit on her family budget. Stress eater that I am, I tried to drown my anxiety with wasabi peas after the kids went to bed. Those peas were sooooo not on plan. FAIL.

This morning's weight: 305 - down 3 - 140 to go

Enough....

I need to loose 143 pounds. That is how much all 3 of my children weigh together. I am at my all time high of 308 disgusting pounds. Wow. I can't believe I revealed that info. But it's time to get real. Enough is enough. Today marks a new beginning. I WILL DO THIS! Care to join me on my journey?